just let go


you were my first true love
you were 8 and i 9 years old
when we kissed for the first time
oh, how we were in love
it was such a great time with you
couldn't have been better
when i moved away
we lost sight of each other
neither of us was very lucky afterwards
it was never that perfect
but two and a half year ago
you found your guy
now for half a year
you have been unhappy
always worried if it was still
the right thing to do

a week ago i found you again
a lucky coincidence
at once we started
writing endless mails all day
and talking
and it was great
you were perfect for me
i was perfect for you
there couldn't be anything missing
just two identical minds
searching for each other

when we finally met
it was just perfect
we got along just as well
as before
we talked for nine hours
then we lay in bed and talked
for another two hours before you
finally fell asleep
in my arms
it was wonderful
just to hold you
and to look at your face
next to mine
it felt so good
that i couldn't sleep at all
two hours later you woke up
and i started stroking your hair
touching your face
playing with your fingers
rubbing your nose with mine
just as you did
when you finally kissed me
it was....undescribable
we lay there
kissing and teasing each other
for hours

when we finally let go
of each other
it was just because
it was getting way to warm
inside your room
but be both were sorry
later when i left
you kissed me goodbye

when i got home
we talked again
but you weren't sure
whether it was
the right thing
to continue
you said that
you really liked it
but that it didn't feel like
the right thing
to do

now i finally have your decision
you are sorry
and didn't want to hurt me
but somehow you still
love him
and will give him
another chance

but what will happen to me
well probably nothing
of consequence
just probably the fact
that i will never find
someone so much the equal to me
well so that means
i will have to stay alone
for the rest of my life

that is just so goddamn stupid
the one woman
i would have married at once
is turning her back on me
although she still don't want to
lose the contact

is there a chance
probably not
he won't be that stupid
to hurt her feelings
again
like he did
the last few months
and i don't wish
her to be hurt
ever again

so what shall i do
without sense in my life
or motivation
to do anything

well the answer is pretty simple
just resignate
never look
at women again
ignore them
so as not to make
too many of them
unhappy as well
just resignate
and let got
just let go
just let go
just let go
never think about
love and partnership
family and happiness
just let go
just let go
just let go
try
not to hope
anymore
just let go
just let go
just let go
and
finally
die
unhappy
and
lonely
just
let
go